why did you take that photo?
This past week I found myself really struggling with social media. It all started when I found myself getting really upset with what bloggers were saying in their Instagram stories. I had woken up {two separate nights} around 2am and was watching every single story in my feed. Getting incredibly frustrated....even more becausee it was 2am! I somehow ended up texting multiple friends in that moment "omg did you see X's story how f-ing ridiculous!!!!". Wasting so much energy being annoyed with someone's words and actions, of someone I do not know; someone I will likely never meet and someone I do not HAVE to be watching if I do not want to.
I am choosing to view other peoples lives. So why do I/we care so damn much?
Ever since I can remember I have loved documenting things. I was always the person taking a ton of photos, documenting it all. Having my mom take me to Walgreens so I could drop off my film and creating elaborate scrapbooks. When I go through these I think 'wow, I have always been this way'; but when did it take the turn of thinking of an Instagram caption before I even got to my destination?You could argue that having this mentality is what makes me "good" at this field or drew me to it....OR that it's kinda creepy and I need to chill the F out. Ok, I took a little detour. So after these two instances of being really annoyed at strangers I had an "ok Emily this is incredibly silly, do not waste energy on this, who cares what they do!!" moment and tried to stay away from watching stories for the day. A freaking day, yeah I barely even got through that. Which is a whole other issue.Do you ever feel like this? I am having A LOT of feelings about social media recently. How it changes, how/why we do things, our intentions. Becuase this quote from a Darling Magazine article nailed it on the damn head."we've sacrificed intentionality in the moment for affiramation after the fact"We/I worry about how things look; did I get the shot? What if I don't get the shot now and the light goes down? All so I can post a photo that I hope people will double tap on?! Now I will say I 100% DO enjoy creating content; I have fun rearranging things for a photo;playing with the lighting and all that jazz, but sometimes that is not always the intent behind it. It should be and I have decided I am only going to do it if that is the intention. Not the intention of 'ugh i have to post'.I hope this results in better more geniuine content.